day 2 with our little guy

So here I sit in the hospital, all alone with my thoughts.  Bryce has gone home to shower and Alexander has gone to get circumsized.  The room is so quiet--so I decided to take a walk around labor and delivery. In this section of the hospital pictures line the ceiling. Baby boys and girls with such big eyes and beautiful smiles. Each one a beautiful miracle from our father in heaven.  I am in awe of the perfection and individuality of each one.  They are all truely gifts from heaven.   I sat with Xan this morning--just the two of us in peace and quiet and I began to count my blessings.  Our journey to this moment has not been an easy one....but ohhhhhhh it has been worth every step.  As I sat there I looked down at this tiny little body, fragile and pink....I thought of the incredible spirit inside of him.   A spirit that has been strong enough to make it through to us.  I am thrilled to see what a fine young man he will become.  I can only imagine the incredible memories we will have in even a week.   He is so special and we are going to try to be the best parents we can be for him. Honestly, I am so scared to be a parent...perhaps that is because I have taught school for 14 years....  I want to give him every opportunity, I want to provide him comfort and stability, and a strong spiritual foundation.  I want to give him everything.....and my fear is I will make some big mistakes along the way.   I just hope that Bryce and I can trust in the lord to guide our new little family.   Melanie